i hate school.
i also hate the sun.
i hate how last year it would be dead sunny in school with lack of shelter.
(like as if the sun never came out in it's life)
i hate how this year, it pours everyday.
(like as if my havainas have grip)
i hate how ALL my friends including J love going to beach.
i hate having headaches from the glare-y sun.
i hate being tan, fair suits me.
i hate the beach because you need to have a sexy frame.
but today, i decided to brave through the heat and beach with neng, lorraine and J.
so much for braving, i hurried to cafe del mar for much shelter and a jelly cocktail.
i think a week ago, we decided to do something close to jack-ass.
we put two boys on the top of a bonet of a honda civic and drove around an empty carpark.
obviously girls first, but aren't like girls, we didn't scream or get hurt.
(we're wonderwomen lah huh?)
the boys, were the total opposite due to the screaming and yes, andrew getting hurt.
maybe i did go a teeeed bit faster than they did for neng and i.
but bearing in mind, the boys played with the window washing liquid, you know the one where water squirts out in front?
so i got my punishment too, scalded by hot water from the engine.
oh, due to a little miscommunication between reza and i, we scared them the wrong way.
(notice when the window wipers went up, it gave andrew more than a fright, he actually let both hands of the car)
i want to change, to rearrange
what is going on.
i need to change, i need to play
like a five year old .
i can't detach from the past and all of the pain,
i need to learn, start from scratch begin again.
throw away yesterday,
today is a brand new day.
so i'm going to eat one hundred sweets,
i don't care if i get fat.
and i'm going to speak one,
i won't censor me.
i know i can take nothing back.
and i'm going to jump, i will unburden.
i cannot go too deep.
i will not run from bad things i've done.
they're things i'll try not to repeat.
throw away yesterday,
today is a brand new day.
welcome to
the church of what's happening now.
head straight through,
it costs nothing but change.
we're replicating javier's infamous default smile.
(andrew and bryan were absent)
reality hits, sheryl has left :(
these few days have been by far, "memories to last a lifetime".
(aiya, get my drift okay?)
and tomorrow, it's golfing with the guys.
i like long bus rides, but not when the duration hits an hour and twenty minutes.
(like seriously?)
i didn't get lost, it's just that i'm travelling from mid-west to what, somewhat the end of singapore.
they might as well have sengkang as an island on it's very own.
like, pulau sengkang.
before i hit the sheets, never have bryan looi(?) in your car.
godforsaken mutated kid.
the ballerina and charrrrrrrrrr. drew and charrrrr. i and charrrrr.
peektures with the girl and boys.
what else, ghost hunting because that's all they do after 12.
need-for-speeding. 
drew, bry, mark and reza.
mark and bry.
mark, i and drew.
javier, you are going to buy me that book we saw at borders, yes?
(i kinda forgot the title though, but far from vague, i remember the book cover)
i know my blog is getting a bit of a bore and slowly, the posts are "hen shao" lately.
part javier, part school.
but today, i will try to make it look word-y and length-y and random-y.
yes, i am still in dire need of getting a job to support my bankrupt-ass to bangkok.
"wo zhen de hen xu yao qian leh?"
but with the rate i'm going with my mobile bills, i'm far from bang-cocking.
next up, projectsprojectsprojects that kill you slowly.
then there's sheryl seah, who pisses me off the most by leaving me for aussie.
SO YOU THINK BY LEAVING, IT'LL MAKE THINGS BETTER?
yes, you will get your degree and inbetween you can have krispy kreme, see bloody farm animals and blonde homosapiens.
I CAN BE BLONDE TOO!
(because all it takes is for me to do much bleeching)
but it itches me to know that i won't have anyone to maggie goreng or drink with me?
do you know how much that hurts!
DO YOU, DO YOU, DO YOU?
i know you do because we still communicate in all ways possible, via the trusty computer.
alright, i need to return jav's four missed calls.
i'm done for.
school is RIDICULOUS.
i mean despite the fact that i do not have school on mondays, giving me ample time to complete the uncompleted.
with thursdays and fridays being my longest days.
no doubt the subjects for this sem is far from boring, we have clay, plaster and photography workshops.
i'm complaining because they seem to be far to lazy to print our project briefs anymore.
all the fuss starts when we have to download them ourselves.
one helluva hassle.
but school's been a-okay only because of the classmates and i have javier waiting for me to end class everyday, which is the sweetest.
imagine waiting 5 hours, jav did.
anyhow so, i'm in DIRE need of cash and in DIRE need to get through the next four months of school.
hummm with me, concentration and focus.
javier better be puttting me in place.
i like 2007, because it gave me javier.
MMMMMMMMMMMMM MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM : )
NENG! doc, happy, dopey, sneezy, grumpy, sleepy, and bashful.
and javier is still over.
i have officially been without a wink of sleep for two straight days.
after tomorrow, i'll chiong to sleepers.
i am how bored.
javier is fast asleep on my bed and mind you, he is snoring helluva loud.
zzzzzzzzzz.
so i'm unable to upload peektures because.
i'll wait for the skin&bones to awake from slumber.
grey's anatomy will do some entertaining for now : (